jingyiluo

I have never thought that so many issues came to my 2013,really,never.In the 
year,I betrayed my feelings in the heart once  again ,although  how unwilling I am actually. To be honest ,if the god gave me one more chance ,I think I will do .
Sometimes,I also wish me a simple and small but happy life. However ,my family 
set does  allow me not to do it.
Thus,I would rather hurt my sweethearts than make them satisfy.Maybe you think  I am a heartless and evil-minded girl? In fact ,I do not know what I am ,either.
Because nobody has a good command of me,if they mistake my actions ,I will not mind it.
Of course ,I should  not know me.Perhaps I am, selfish,kind,sensitive,weak,meanwhile,warm and passionate and so on,even some of unselfishal.But I am not sure everthing. On one hand, I refused all calls from boys,whoever .Since  I hurt them at last,
then I had no alternative  but to do so .Indeed,all the time,I often try my best to avoid  anything uncertain .On the other hand,Iconstantly felt guilty  .The two sides  
always conflict.Maybe humanbeings are indeed like this,and everybody has their ,you know,hardship which they can't tell others.